Comments on: Dying from liver failure http://www.metastaticlivercancer.org/2008-11-25-cancer-treatment/dying-from-liver-failure/ Clear info, support, survivors and treatment of secondary liver cancer. Thu, 15 Dec 2011 06:32:01 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: kathe http://www.metastaticlivercancer.org/2008-11-25-cancer-treatment/dying-from-liver-failure/comment-page-1/#comment-85890 kathe Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000 http://www.metastaticlivercancer.org/?p=554#comment-85890 hello again...ive just read some very interesting things and i will pray for all of you that need my prayers! Q-non hodgkins lymphoma...follicular cell stage 4b upon diagnosis...immediately metastasised to the bone marrow...after two years of chop and one month of rituxan i was told the chemo regimen was over... i never believed it for a second and begged my dr to give me rituxan maintenance plan for my blood cancer...he laughed at me and told me i worry to much and i had enough chemo in me for twenty people! now...4years later bec he didnt want to hear i had symptoms...my fatigue...chronic night sweats.and on and on...nope he just wouldnt listen...well now i just found out the cancer is in the liver...however right now im waiting on test results bec i may have been administered to much chemo! they are now tellng me it may have damaged my heart and i may not be able to receive chemo...but then again...were not talking about my LIVER..no just the old news non hodghkins lymphoma..folicular cell which is totally incurable!! now i have to wait until the 6th of may to find out what my destiny actually is going to be! why ...why....why do i have to wait to next week when today fri my onco has all results!!!!! i just need to know as things are happening quite quickly in my life such as all of a sudden i have hospice at my house 5 days a week!!..dont get me wrong im very greatful...however...they are the ones that told me my end of life is near and that is why they are involved bec my gp called them! can you imagine...cuz i sure cant!!!!! and yet here i still am with no answers ...doesnt a person with cancer suffer emotionally and physically enough???? and then i look at my DNR paper which hospice had brought me...and it states if my death is not reached within 90 days ...the dr must be notified immediately!!!!~ what the hell is that!!!!! oh so he can re examine me and say well it should be 4 more days or whatever!!!! the stress of the unknown is the worse emotional and physical pain that i have ever endured!!!! so now what ??? am i gonna one day wake up and be week or vomit or have uncontollable bowels???? i need to know what i need to expect for my end which is obviously now if my dr only thinks i have 90 days!!!! i have so many questions!!! is the pain going to be unbearable....am i going to know who i am and what is going on...when i look at my grandchildren will i know who they are...and my son...who is about to lose his mother...what do i say to him?????? is the end going to hurt....am i going to remember it....or is this cancer which has metastasized twice...once from the bone marrow and now the liver and all from non hodgkins lymphoma stage 4 b just going to quitely take me away?? im desperate....PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU CAN! I NEED TO KNOW SO PLEASE IN THE NAME OF GOD IM BEGGING YOU...NO...IM COMMANDING YOU TO TELL ME...PLEASE SHARE YOUR HEARTWRENCHING DETAILS AND HELP ME! THANK YOU KATHE hello again…ive just read some very interesting things and i will pray for all of you that need my prayers!

Q-non hodgkins lymphoma…follicular cell stage 4b upon diagnosis…immediately metastasised to the bone marrow…after two years of chop and one month of rituxan i was told the chemo regimen was over…

i never believed it for a second and begged my dr to give me rituxan maintenance plan for my blood cancer…he laughed at me and told me i worry to much and i had enough chemo in me for twenty people!

now…4years later bec he didnt want to hear i had symptoms…my fatigue…chronic night sweats.and on and on…nope he just wouldnt listen…well now i just found out the cancer is in the liver…however right now im waiting on test results bec i may have been administered to much chemo!

they are now tellng me it may have damaged my heart and i may not be able to receive chemo…but then again…were not talking about my LIVER..no just the old news non hodghkins lymphoma..folicular cell which is totally incurable!!

now i have to wait until the 6th of may to find out what my destiny actually is going to be! why …why….why do i have to wait to next week when today fri my onco has all results!!!!!

i just need to know as things are happening quite quickly in my life such as all of a sudden i have hospice at my house 5 days a week!!..dont get me wrong im very greatful…however…they are the ones that told me my end of life is near and that is why they are involved bec my gp called them!

can you imagine…cuz i sure cant!!!!!

and yet here i still am with no answers …doesnt a person with cancer suffer emotionally and physically enough????

and then i look at my DNR paper which hospice had brought me…and it states if my death is not reached within 90 days …the dr must be notified immediately!!!!~ what the hell is that!!!!! oh so he can re examine me and say well it should be 4 more days or whatever!!!!

the stress of the unknown is the worse emotional and physical pain that i have ever endured!!!!

so now what ??? am i gonna one day wake up and be week or vomit or have uncontollable bowels????

i need to know what i need to expect for my end which is obviously now if my dr only thinks i have 90 days!!!!

i have so many questions!!! is the pain going to be unbearable….am i going to know who i am and what is going on…when i look at my grandchildren will i know who they are…and my son…who is about to lose his mother…what do i say to him??????

is the end going to hurt….am i going to remember it….or is this cancer which has metastasized twice…once from the bone marrow and now the liver and all from non hodgkins lymphoma stage 4 b just going to quitely take me away??

im desperate….PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU CAN! I NEED TO KNOW SO PLEASE IN THE NAME OF GOD IM BEGGING YOU…NO…IM COMMANDING YOU TO TELL ME…PLEASE SHARE YOUR HEARTWRENCHING DETAILS AND HELP ME!

THANK YOU

KATHE

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